The nature of ADHD
- Sep 2, 2006
I have been having a "bad day", I seem to be comming out of it now, but while I am in that state, I hurt the people I love either through distraction or directly. I am not sure how to explain what goes on in my mind when I am like this, but I will make the attempt.
Imagine your life is a TV channel, sound and visual, now imagine flipping through the channels only staying on each channel for a few seconds, sometimes able to pause and come back to important stations, now imagine a "bad day", the channels keep changing, no way to delay, no way to go back to the important channels, just flipping, channel to channel. Nothing would be understood, nothing would be done.
I have been reading up on ADHD and its reasons and causes, and I am beginning to see it is only a problem because of how we are forced to live, had I been raised in a tribal society perhaps I would have done better, these "bad days", are simply attacks, where my mind is rejecting the barriers society places on me, attempting to force me to function as a farmer instead of a hunter.
I will continue to read up and learn, and perhaps one day I will find the right way to cope that does not have me needing to pull myself out of society for periods because I cannot deal with the insanity that society represents.
I have been having a "bad day", I seem to be comming out of it now, but while I am in that state, I hurt the people I love either through distraction or directly. I am not sure how to explain what goes on in my mind when I am like this, but I will make the attempt.
Imagine your life is a TV channel, sound and visual, now imagine flipping through the channels only staying on each channel for a few seconds, sometimes able to pause and come back to important stations, now imagine a "bad day", the channels keep changing, no way to delay, no way to go back to the important channels, just flipping, channel to channel. Nothing would be understood, nothing would be done.
I have been reading up on ADHD and its reasons and causes, and I am beginning to see it is only a problem because of how we are forced to live, had I been raised in a tribal society perhaps I would have done better, these "bad days", are simply attacks, where my mind is rejecting the barriers society places on me, attempting to force me to function as a farmer instead of a hunter.
I will continue to read up and learn, and perhaps one day I will find the right way to cope that does not have me needing to pull myself out of society for periods because I cannot deal with the insanity that society represents.
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